Even though I hung up with friends for two days, my sensitive heart still hurts.

I admit I am a small-minded person, I hate losing anything even attention of my BFF.

I used to be sad about relationships with others because I almost have no close friends at school. ( only one from my class, and few from other classes, it’s really a small sized circle of friend) ,but I got support from my roommates and old friends.

But after today’s date, I feel I have lost something, and I don’t know the reason. I am not the closest and most important friend of hers anymore. I believe there’s the feeling of 吃醋吧！The only difference is the audience is not my boyfriend.

I feel everything is so ephemeral, I want to grasp everything but to no avail. Instead, I am losing them.

Unfortunately, I sounded like I have depression. But I guess it’s reasonable. When you realized your closest friend these years started to be estranged with you, your promo was badly done and there are still exams and schoolworks coming.